Day 18 of 30 random things!
What has been the most difficult thing you've had to forgive?
I've been dreading this question for 2 reasons. 1: I can't come up with just one thing. Forgiving is hard, and I've got about 3 or 4 examples floating around in my head and I can't come up with just 1. And 2: It's obviously something I have forgiven and tried to move past, so why bring it up again? So I'm going to briefly touch on a couple of things so that no one feels personally attacked. And I want those people to know that these things really have been forgiven and I rarely think about them.
My parents' divorce was really messy and angry and bitter and not fun for anyone. It had been really hard for me as a teenager to forgive them for having my sister and I grow up in that environment. As I've gotten older, though, I realize that my parents were just as unhappy with it as we were.
My sister and I had a horrible relationship growing up. She was a pretty nasty teenager. And I was a brat and a little spoiled into thinking I was the "good" daughter. So we had some pretty terrible fights and I REALLY disliked her for a long time. We have a fantastic relationship now because I had to realize that she was a really unhappy teenager and none of her anger was actually directed at me, even though I got the brunt of it.
My mom has a problem with addiction, and I've had some very negative experiences because of it. It's really hard as a child of someone with those problems, especially if they are happening when you're young. It's taken me a while to fully forgive her for her mistakes, but I understand that it's a sickness and not always under her control. And as with anything like that, it's one day at a time.
In my senior year of college, I had a really hard time with my friends. I think I was going through a lot and so were they and a lot of stuff came to a head that year. I was really unhappy and feeling very alone for those first few months after I graduated, but I can safely say that ALL has been forgiven, on both sides, and I have some wonderful friends now.
Ok, I'm done. Not talking about this stuff anymore.
What has been the most difficult thing you've had to forgive?
I've been dreading this question for 2 reasons. 1: I can't come up with just one thing. Forgiving is hard, and I've got about 3 or 4 examples floating around in my head and I can't come up with just 1. And 2: It's obviously something I have forgiven and tried to move past, so why bring it up again? So I'm going to briefly touch on a couple of things so that no one feels personally attacked. And I want those people to know that these things really have been forgiven and I rarely think about them.
My parents' divorce was really messy and angry and bitter and not fun for anyone. It had been really hard for me as a teenager to forgive them for having my sister and I grow up in that environment. As I've gotten older, though, I realize that my parents were just as unhappy with it as we were.
My sister and I had a horrible relationship growing up. She was a pretty nasty teenager. And I was a brat and a little spoiled into thinking I was the "good" daughter. So we had some pretty terrible fights and I REALLY disliked her for a long time. We have a fantastic relationship now because I had to realize that she was a really unhappy teenager and none of her anger was actually directed at me, even though I got the brunt of it.
My mom has a problem with addiction, and I've had some very negative experiences because of it. It's really hard as a child of someone with those problems, especially if they are happening when you're young. It's taken me a while to fully forgive her for her mistakes, but I understand that it's a sickness and not always under her control. And as with anything like that, it's one day at a time.
In my senior year of college, I had a really hard time with my friends. I think I was going through a lot and so were they and a lot of stuff came to a head that year. I was really unhappy and feeling very alone for those first few months after I graduated, but I can safely say that ALL has been forgiven, on both sides, and I have some wonderful friends now.
Ok, I'm done. Not talking about this stuff anymore.
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